Hurt Because of my own mistakes

I have been out with someone for 2 years. We really love each other,we were so much engaged in our relationship. We were planning to get get things serious after our studies. Before joining university this year, i was working for three months. During this time i really didn't get time for my boyfriend. At work i couldn't text him,once home i was tired and fell asleep quickly. I didn't get time to spend with him. We really were getting distant. This really affected him. He was opening his heart to me many times,he was expressing his feelings, telling me how hurt he is. Despite this, i still couldn't find time for him. I should admit that sometimes i took things for granted. He thought i did't love him anymore. But that wasn't the case, time was the only problem. We were arguing very often and sometimes i even lied to him to hide some small details only not to deteriorate things. When he found out, he was so fed up that he decided to end things between us. His cousin,who came from another country for holidays, is staying at his place, This girl is interested in him and they became close,they even had sex. My boyfriend didn't hide this fact to me. He admit it all and he said it was me who pushed him doing that. He said he approached that girl only to hurt me. That girl love him and my boyfriend told me he have no such feeling for her but he don't want to break her heart. Now i think he is confused,he don't know what to do. I think its right that i accept this and let him live. We are friends and i think thats the best 4 now. I should 4get it all and that's very hard. His cousin is going back in few days. I can't figure out what to do. I never thought he could do something like this. I'll always love him but i should accept we are just friends now.

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