hi i am new here , and i am reading some of the stories here and i find them sometimes alittle on the funny side. sorry if i put it wrongly , but life is not very funny from what my life is going thru ... i am a guy 48 this year , and just went thru the worst divorce , i lost custody of my 12 yr old kid , whom i love very much , and now have to see him only weekends and its a struggle and i see him slowly drifting away from me ... a kid i love now gone with my ex-wife - an ambitious , arrogant , corporate , power hungry hyporcite - in front of people sooo sweet , in the house like a frigging tyrant . I committed audltery - no sex for 2 years makes one alittle horny . The church - the once wonderful warm congregation , the nice , understanding pastor that helped me during my separation 3 years ago and bought me back to my wife whom was cheating on me - now says - with the rest of the church that i am a big fat lousy hopeless sinner - becos i admitted i committed adultery , and my ex-wife did not . no sex with a woman for 2 years does make one horny . charismatics are so judgemental . or is it the tithes my wife gives while i have to struggle , while clearing my credit cards . My church sister whom we shares so many prayers and testimonies in cell groups - was a bitch selling our matrimony house . i got screwed royally , i am such a fucking hopeless guy - soft hearted , always thinking of others - getting fucked by them like a doormat .
now i am alone at 48 in an old apartment which i bought , with my parents . struggling to mend my life up . i dont know where i am going but i just work , wake up , breathe , sleep and work some more . while my arrogant bitch of an ex-wife is staying in a lovely condo .
guys - save your money , don't think of others - have your own account and keep it away from your wife . one day you maynot know you may need it .
i just hope one day things will get better for me , cos its depressing to know you are just ordinary .
i wish i had a million dollars . people look down on you when u don't have money . gosh i am tired .