My never Ending
Other Badhaps
I miss him and GOD i love him!i love him,i love him,i love him!
hey...im 15 and two years back i met a guy (who is 18) through a mutual friend online and since then,things have never been the same...we've seen each other but never really had a date...although we live in the same city,i never actually wanted to meet him fearing that i would lose myself later or that my life would be a complete breakdown.
2 weeks after i chatted with him like every single day,for the fist time ever,i fell in love...like actual love...i would call him each and every single day and man was his voice sexy,trust me.i was so lucky that i actually cried to myself at night.you should see my diary though it says more than my heart does.so we were 'going on' like that for 7 months...i loved the way he called me,the way he cared for me,the way he sang for me...everything!
but then,i got this weird feeling like 'what the heck am i doing?i havnt even met this guy for heavens sake and who knows if he actually likes you or not?Lets face it,the relationship is never going to work out' and then i did something that i dont regret...i started to ignore him.
his messages,calls,everything.You might call me a bitch but i thought it was the best i could do for both of us.he had his exams comming up and i had mine too.we also ran outta stuff to talk about and i could tell that i was doing the right thing.
after that i realised how much i had missed in life...my friends actually missed me so much and i got rid of my attitude problem.
i started going to guitar classes...i play basketball every single day...i did everything,EVERYTHING to get him outta my mind...but every night i ask myself 'did you actualy deserve him?'
this is my story and maybe someday we both might realise that loving someone means letting them go.
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